| Location | Blackpool |
| Age | 21 days |
| Cause of Death | Organ Failure |
| Date of Birth | 23/03/2004 |
| Date of Death | 13/04/2004 |
| Visitors | 2,058 since 15/11/2007 |
| Creator |
sean paul randhawa singh
23-03-04to 13-04-04 24/40
weigth 1lb 9oz
age 3weeks
mum dad 2 sisters i brother and 1 brother angel his twin kyle amtoz
my story in 2003 i found out that i was me and my boyfriend at the time we got married 2004 so
at 9 weeks i had scan only because they thought i was later than that any way things looked fine the
baby was ok i was allwas in pain and feeling sick consent at 19 weeks scan we got a surprise its
twins and it was also boys shocked but happy we want to the pub my husband need a drink we went for
1 baby to2 thing happen fast at 21 WEEKS i went for another scan because i was in so much pain i
cont hardly walk and they said that the twin had ttts twin to twin syndrome and too much fluid
around seanpaul and none around kyle so they booked appointment at manchester st Marys hosp the
next day but that nite i had a SHOW SO BACK TO THE HOSP THEY KEPT ME IN AND THE NEXT DAY THEY TOOK
ME TO THE APPOINT FROM BLACKPOOL WHERE I LIVE SO GETS THERE AND SEE DR AND HE SAY THAT THE TWINS
ONLY HAVE A 5 % CHANCE OFF LIVING AND THEN THEY DRAIND 6 LITERS OF FLUID FROM ME WENT BACK HOME NO
MORE PAIN AND COULD FEEL KYLE MOVE AROUND I HAD A SCAN A FEW DAYS LATER KYLE WAS STILL SMALL AS HE
WAS GIVE EVERY THING TO SEANPAUL BUT THING LOOK GOOD THEN AT 24 WEEKS 22-03-04 I WENT IN TO
PREMLAUBOUR THEY TRID TO STOP THE LABOUR AND FOR A FEW HOURS IT WORKED THEY GIVE TWINS THE SEROID A
FEW WEEKS EARLER AND AT 12AM 23-03-04 THEY LABOUR STARTED AGIAN THEY WASNT STOPING I WAS THE SIZE
OF 38 WEEKS AND AT 4;08 SEANPAUL WAS BORN AND THEN AT 4;22 KYLE WAS BORN I NEVER HEARD THEM CRY SO
THEY WAS WISKED AWAY TO SCUB AT 8;30 I SAW THEY SO TINY KYLE WEIGHTED 1 LB 10Z AND SEANPAUL 1 LB 9
0Z THAT DAY THEY GOT MOVED TO LIVERPOOL WOMENS HOSPITAL I STAYED OVER NITE IN HOSP AS I HADE
TEMPTURE SO THE NEXT DAY GOT THEM THERE BIRTH REGURED GO A BUS TO LIVERPOOL I GOT TO THE HOSP AND
SAW THEM AGAIN THINGS DIDNT LOOK GOOD FOR KYLE HIS KIDNEYS WASNT WORKING SO HE HAD TO MUCH POSSIUM
THAT NITE ME AND MY HUSBAND AND TWO DAUGTHER STAYED IN A ROOM IN THE NEONATAL WARD AS THE DIDNT
THINK KYLE WAS GOING TO LAST THE NITE BUT HE HELD ON SO THE NEXT DAY THEY PAID FOR A HOTEL BECAUSE
THEY WASNT ANY WHERE FOR US TO STAY SO WE WENT TO THE HOTEL TO GET CHANGE AND FRESHIN UP BUT AT
9;00PM THEY PHONED ME SAYING THAT KYLE WASNT GOING TO HOLD ON ANY LONGER SO THEY SENT A CAB BUT IT
WAS TO LATE HE WAS GONE GREW HIS WINGS AT 2DAYS 17 HOURS OLD AND WE WASNT THERE I KNOW THAT HE HAD
GONE IN MY HEART ONLY PEOPLE HOW HAVE LOST BABYS KNOW THAT FEELING I GOT TO WHERE HE WAS I SCEAMED
MY DAUGTHERS WAS WITH THE NURSES DRAWING WHILE I HELD HE FOR THE FIRST TIME HIS HEART WASNT STRONG
SO ME AND MY HUSBAND HELD HIM MY ELDIST DAUGTHER HELD HIM BUT MY OTHER DAUGTHER WOULDNT I RANG MY
MUM SO HEART BREAKING WE WENT BACK TO THE HOTEL AND WE CRYED OUR SELF TO SLEEP BUT WE HAD TO BE
STRONG FOR SEANPAUL AND THE GIRLS MY MUM CAME THE NEXT DAY SAW KYLE IT HURTS SO MUCH MUM SAID GOOD
BYE WE ALL DID THEN WENT TO SEE SEANPAUL THE WAS DOING SO WELL HE HAD STARTED TO TAKE MY MILK
THOUGTH IS TUBE AND I CHANGED IS TINY BUM THEN THINGS WENT WRONG HE STARTED HAVING FITS AND HIS BOBY
GOT BLOTED THE WAS SO CHEEKY HE SET THE ALARMS OFF SO THE NURSE CAME RUNING HE PUT ON WEIGTH 1LB
15OZ THEN ON THE 13 -04-04 WHEN HE WAS 3WKS OLD HE GO REALLY ILL THE AIR WAS ESCAPEING OUT OF HIS
LUNGS WHEN WE SAT WITH HIM HE OPENED 1 EYE AND LOOKED AT ME AND I KNOW WHAT HE WAS SAYING TO ME
PLEASE LET ME GO BE WITH MY BROTHER HE WAS IN SO MUCH PAIN THEY PUT CHEST DRIANS IN AND IT WORKED
BUT A FEW HOURS LATER HE GOT WORSE THEY DRS SAID THEY WAS NOTHING MORE THEY CAN DO I HATED SEEING
HIM IN SO MUCH PAIN WE HAD TO DO THE HARDIST THING ANY MOTHER COULD DO SO THEY TURNED OFF THE MIHCEN
OFF I HELD HIM UNTILL HE WAS GONE MY HEART WAS BROKEN EVERN MORE I LOST BOTH MY BABIES WE ALREADY
HAD KYLES FUNARAL I DIDnt THINK I WOULD have TO DOIT AGIAN THE TWINS WAS BORN 2GETHER AND THEY WAS
SCATERD 2 GETHER ALLWAYS TO GETHER IN LIFE AND DEATH I FOUND 2 FEATHERS ONE DAY NEAR MY FEET THEY
WAS NO WINDOWS OPEN DO YOU THINK THEY ARE FORM THEM SEANPAUL DIED OF EXTREME PREMATURITY 24/40
AND BRONCHOPLURAL FISTULA ALSO ACUTE TUBULARE NECROSIO AND BILATERUL INTRAVENTRIALAR HAEMOORRHAGE
Only The Best
Only The Best
A heart of gold stopped beating
Two shining eyes at rest
Gad broke our hearts to prove
He only takes the best
God knows you had to leave us
But you did not go alone
For part of us went with you
The day he took you home
To some you are forgotten
To others just the past
But to us who loved and lost you
Our memories will always last
The Place Where Little Babies Go
Fluffy clouds of pink and blue
Where fairytales and dreams come true
Where teddy bears put on a show
In the place where little babies go
Where a choir of angels sing on high
A peaceful, soothing lullaby
Where feathers flutter down like snow
In the place where little babies go
Where the sun is shining everyday
In a heavenly sky that’s never grey
Where love will bloom and always grow
In the place where little babies go
Where bells will ring and hearts will soar
When a mum and dad walk through its door
Then it's only tears of joy that flow
In the place where little babies go.
missing you
hi sweet baby boy
iam missing you and ur brother so much
it hurts so much why is life so crule?
i want you to be here so much
i know that you are not far away from us
but its not the same as doing everthing for you
i want to kiss and hugs u so much and never let u go
i hope you know that i love you so much
allways and forever loved
and forever missed
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my angel twins
GO AHEAD AND MENTION OUR TWINS,
THE ONES THAT DIED YOU KNOW!
DON'T WORRY ABOUT HURTING US FURTHER
THE DEPTH OF OUR PAIN DOESN'T SHOW.
DON'T WORRY ABOUT MAKING US CRY!
WE'RE CRYING ALREADY INSIDE.
WE HOPE TO HEAL BY RELEASING
THE TEARS WE TRY TO HIDE.
WE ARE HURTING WHEN YOUR SILENT
PRETENDING THEY DIDN'T EXIST
WE'D RATHER YOU MENTIONED OUR TWINS
KNOWING THAT THEY ARE SO VERY MISSED
These are my footprints,
So perfect and so small.
These tiny footprints,
Never touched the ground at all.
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Not one tiny footprint,
For now I have my wings.
These tiny footprints were meant,
For other things.
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You will hear my tiny footprints,
In the patter of the rain.
Gentle drops like angel's tears,
Of joy and not from pain.
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You will see my tiny footprints,
In each butterflies' lazy dance.
I'll let you know I'm with you,
If you just give me a chance.
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You will see my tiny footprints,
In the rustle of the leaves.
I will whisper names into the wind,
And call each one that grieves.
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Most of all, these tiny footprints,
Are found on mommy's heart.
'Cause even though I'm gone now,
We'll NEVER truly part
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…………..CANDLE OF LOVE
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Few people come into our lives
and make everything shine,
but you're one of those
rare and splendid jewels
who makes the whole world bright.
When I am sad, you make me smile.
When I am alone and blue,
you are there for me,
and you make me feel strong enough
to accomplish anything.
Because I appreciate
the many things you do,
more than words can say,
I'm sending you the Candle of Love,
and hoping you receive
many blessings from above.
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Please send the candle of love to someone
who has touched your life, and keep the flame
of love burning bright.
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allways and forever in our hearts xxxx
The Place Where Little Babies Go
Fluffy clouds of pink and blue
Where fairytales and dreams come true
Where teddy bears put on a show
In the place where little babies go
Where a choir of angels sing on high
A peaceful, soothing lullaby
And their feathers flutter down like snow
In the place where little babies go
Where the sun is shining everyday
In a heavenly sky that’s never grey
Where love will bloom and always grow
In the place where little babies go
Where bells will ring and hearts they soar
When a mum and dad walk through its door
Then only tears of joy will flow
In the place where little babies go.
sleeping on the softest clouds in heaven
A letter to your angel
Do you make them laugh up there,
Does your smile bring them good cheer?
Do you make the sun shine brighter,
like you did when you were here?
The very mention of your name,
the memories of your smile,
The little things you said and did,
are with your mum all the while.
You meant so very much to her,
there’s nothing left to say,
Except that without you here
there is no perfect day.
For no one knows the heartache,
that lies behind her smiles,
no one knows how many times
she has broken down & cried.
she wants to tell you something
so there wont be any doubt,
you're so wonderful to think of,
but so hard to be without...
she holds you close within her heart,
and there you shall remain.
To walk with her throughout her life,
until you meet again
i miss you xx
we thought of you with love today
but thats is nothing new
we thought about you yesterday
and the days before that too
we think of you in silence
we often speak your name
now all we have is memories
and your picture in a frame
your memory is our keepsake
with which we'll never part
god has you in his keeping
we have you in our heart
did you have a fantastic birthday yest darling? im sure you caught the bolloons that ur mammy sent you, i hope you shared them with kyle, i hope you liked your birthday card that i sent you, play safe sweetheart and watch over your family always xxxxxx
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